I am the same good faithful woman I always was, just on a different path than I ever expected, one full of insights and blessings I never knew could exist. I pray almost daily that his schedule will get better once we both started working, but I'm constantly concerned that I'll be doing most things alone too. Her Religion is the single most important thing in her life. You guys have very thick skin.
He told me that there is nothing in the world that is more gratifying. Children thrive on clarity and consistency. But I wish he would call or text me or maybe make a sweet gesture every once in awhile. Going along with her cult might feel fine when it is just you in her, but if you have kids, it will be very different. I keep getting job offers from China and Japan while I truly struggle to find work here in the states. You're only seeing what's on the surface of her Have enough people told you to run. It's hard right now because he's on a general surgery rotation so his hours suck and I never see him. Lonely is an everyday thing.
The first year is mostly research with regular hours followed by those daunting 3 years. When we obsess over it we start acting like a customer in a clothing store wondering what he or she will look like if they wear that particular wardrobe. She's too heavily invested in Mormonism for that. Follow the footnotes and you start to find the lies.
When he is doing these things, he gets really upset with me if I try to talk to him because he's busy. As a general authority I knew, now deceased, told me in the mid-eightiesвIf you find a good man who is not LDS, marry him. I think about leaving all the time now because by myself there are no disappointments. It's alot to understand if not raised and taught in it specifically.
